Response to Paula, Jochen, Charles, and Jack

Thank you for your comments and giving me something to respond to.

There is more to tell about my dear niece, and I will. I have been working on it.

The conclusion at the long end of the telescope is that my niece has her life, and she is no longer in the Dark Tower. It seems to me that she has come to terms with her life as it is. She does not ask much of life as most of us do. I have never seen her feel sorry for herself. I do not think she sees her mother through my eyes. I think my niece is a courageous being with a supreme attitude. She had a harder life psychologically than anyone I personally know, and yet, when all is said and done, it seems she is content and derives as much happiness from her present life as anyone else.

She is the only one in my remaining family (except my daughter) who subscribes to Heavenletters™, and she truly loves them. She writes every now and then and begins with: Dear Aunt Gloria

My niece is unfailingly considerate and kind. On the surface, she does not lead the life of a princess, but, in truth, she is a princess.

I also think that others may not see my niece as I do.

Getting back to your relating my niece’s story to Heavenletters, I cannot. I don’t even try. I believe God says we cannot understand, and I certainly don’t. I do not love my sister Sylvia, and I don’t excuse her, and I don’t understand why her husband, my mother, her husband’s parents etc.  seemingly did excuse her and leave the little princess to her fate.

Why innocent Princess Bonita would have chosen Queen Sylabub as a mother — it’s beyond me. Do we know that that theory is true? I suppose.

Yet maybe, just maybe, my niece’s story is to show the triumph of the human soul.

She later had a son, and God certainly blessed her son, and that story has a very happy ending.

When I do complete my telling of this chapter of my life for the book, I likely will include your comments and much of my response to you as well.

Now I would also like to ask you to comment on the effectiveness of the writing itself. When it came to writing the most dire story in this series, I could only face doing it as a fairy tale. Was everything clear? What was strong? What needs strengthening? Did the story work for you? Do you think this will this work in a book of family stories?

Of course, I also wonder how I got to be the sister of Queen Sylabub. Could anyone imagine that a sister of Sylvia’s would ever become a Godwriter™? It’s inconceivable, isn’t it? Frankly, dear friends, excuse my lack of humility here — I am bewildered by my sister Sylvia.

By the way, since I started this entry, I asked God some of my questions, God gave me some answers in my personal Godwriting™ this morning, so that’s the next blog entry after this. And then that aspect of my story is done.

Posted by Gloria on March 5th, 2010 under these topics
Family Stories, Godwriting Journal

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11 Replies

Reply from paula on March 5, 2010

I think that the story worked well and will work in a book of family stories. The fact that you could only write it as a fairy tale denotes how painful it was to remember it and also some feelings of guilt. God has been telling us lately in Heavenletters to let go of guilt, because it’s the ego’s way of keeping us down. As for your sister Sylvia, maybe she’d taken on a difficult role in order to show all the people around how not to be. Maybe you became a Godwriter also thanks to her example, I don’t know. I have ten brothers and sisters and we all love each other unconditionally, so I cannot relate to your situation. Though we all have our differences and faults, none of us has ‘gone astray’. I think that more than on the education we got from our parents this depends on the example they gave us with their lives.

Reply from Gloria on March 5, 2010

You have a beautiful family, cara Paula.

I believe it is said that everyone is responsible to everyone for everything.

We contribute to everything.

Reply from Charles Fines on March 5, 2010

As to relating this story, and all your stories for that matter, to Heavenletters, I have to say that if God had not chosen you to do what you do, I might find your stories interesting but probably not compelling as I do now. There are, after all, well over six billion stories in progress all around us at any given moment.

But only one of all those stories directly involves someone willing and able to get up every morning before the crack of dawn and write down a message from God that people all over the world anticipate and would feel an emptiness without.

As it happens, that person goes thru life stubbing her toe same as me, and not always reacting in a Godly manner, same as me, and I find that not only fascinating, but also very comforting. I guess it’s the contrast involved in the human condition. It’s why I come to this blog daily to see if there is something new like people used to crowd the dock to get the lastest chapter of a Dickens novel in progress.

And as to the form of this story, or others, I don’t think of it in terms of what might end up on the New York Times Bestseller list, tho someone else might. I like to read the stories just as they come and I don’t necessarily need to ever read them over again.

What I take away from the story of your niece is that she has triumphed over adversity in a way that must be highly pleasing to God and makes me want to try harder. The details of that story or the particular telling of it will fade but the fact that it is humanly possible to overcome to that extent remains as a beacon of hope for me personally.

Putting a book together to the point where it could be printed, or even transmitted as an e-book, takes a lot of time and effort. I wonder how much doing this would take away from all else that you are given to do. I wonder what benefit it would have as opposed to the benefit of being able to read new stories as they come. Would there be enough energy left for new stories if you spent what you have on a book? Just wondering.

Anyone with word and computer skills could pick out all the family stories and put them in one place if they felt it was important to do. In my opinion, the less tinkering with them, the better. In fact I would consider it sufficient to just list all the links to particular blog entries in one place and keep it up to date.

Someone else who enjoys lying in bed turning the pages of a book might go so far as to put it into form suitable for printing as an on-demand self-published single-copy book. And pay the fee for setting it up, I might add. The problem with that for me is that, unlike a Dickens novel, I consider this story never ending.

Reply from Gloria on March 5, 2010

Beloved Charles, yes, you are quite right. Without Heavenletters, what would be the point of all this telling. Yes, everyone and his brother has memoirs and stories to tell. And what is the point?

Why I imagine the family stories have value to Heavenletters is: They show that anyone can Godwrite. Anyone. They also show growth from the process of Godwriting — sitting down with God every day. A written story may also attract an audience that might not hear about Heavenletters and/or take a look at them otherwise. I think I could not be writing all this unless God wanted me to do. I am kinda driven to get this all written down. I doubt that I would have the energy unless God were behind me.

It is very hard now to do something just for myself. I have no incentive unless there is more to it than that. At least, I think so.

Much has already been written and aired in the blog. For me, I don’t really discover what I have to say until I start writing. Then connections pour in.

I am also fortunate to have a magnificent audience already here that can keep me level-headed.

I cringe to think of where I would be on my own without Godwriting. What mess would I have gotten into. How barren my life would be without it.

Thank you, dear Charley.

Reply from Jack van Raders on March 5, 2010

Dearest Gloria, I am so pleased your niece is happy and if you keep going at it, Please do not dwell on it to long as it must hurt you to go back go to the present and thank GOD for all your blessings Love Jack

Reply from Gloria on March 6, 2010

Now, dear Jack, you are happy. You exude happiness.

My niece is probably as happy as anyone else. She is happy enough. I imagine it’s true of everyone — they come to terms with their lives and extract the best from it they can.

You, on the other hand, are happier.

Reply from Lynda on March 6, 2010

Gloria, I agree with everything everyone else has said.

Like you, I had family experiences similar to yours and Sylvia’s, only mine was my mother.

It occured to me reading the fairytale, that the message Sylvia heard over and over was “poor Sylvia.”
Perhaps she so desperately needed to make herself perfect (and her children perfect), that she went about it in a distorted way. So many need the darkness in order to see and experience the light.

In your sister’s day, “thumbsucking” was frowned upon, and the mother was looked at as “coddling” her children.
My mother used to put cayenne pepper on mine - ah, I just had a revelation! Maybe that is why I don’t particularly enjoy spicey foods ;0)

To answer your question why so many did not interfere with Sylvia’s discipline style - because it becomes a war. The Sylvia’s in our lives will wear us down, simply with their tenacity to be perfect. It becomes survival of the fittest.

I am certain that her husband and others took guilt with them to the other side when they passed, for not doing something. But it is all about choice isn’t it?

I know through conversations I have had with my father (who is still living) that he still has guilt about the way he chose to handle his marriage and the upbringing of his two children.

And I do believe we choose to experience certain scenarios prior to our incarnation. I have many that I still haven’t been able to sort out, as to what the lesson was, and why. And maybe that is not important.

I do know that when I read fairytales from Gloria, and hear or read stories from others that harmonize with my experiences, it is ALWAYS healing for me.
Thank you Gloria.

God knew exactly what he was doing when he chose people such as you, and Neale Donald Walsch, and so many others, who while in their darkest hour would never have dreamnt that they would become our way to God communication.

I can’t count the number of times in my life, that during a very trying an emotional time, I would yell out, “God, why have you forsaken me? Left me all alone to deal with this… how will I ever get through?”
And I have always heard the voice (when I stop and wait in the silence to listen) “I am here. I have not left you. All you need to do is ask.” And then “be still and know that I am God.”

And if your fairytales, and stories bring just one more person closer to God, then we will have less and less of the darkness in our world. And far more love and light and happiness.

Reply from Gloria on March 6, 2010

And look what you became, beloved Lynda!

About it was the style then — yes, that is true, but I have to say that doesn’t carry any weight with me. I mean it’s no excuse. I think excuses are not a good thing.

Reply from Pam (fortheloveofGodde) on March 7, 2010

A fairytale … I have often told those writing their own painful bits of stories to write in the third person, as if it were someone else they were writing about, but I never thought of the form of a fairytale.

You a tale told to great effect. The comments reflect how it touched. Like you and Lynda, I also had a Dark Queen in my life, only it was my great-grandmother.

It’s hard to forgive someone’s meanness when we have absolutely no idea what made them so mean. I knew and greatly loved her mother, my great-great grandmother. She had the sweetest nature of anyone I ever knew. But her daughter was mean. My grandmother, her daughter was mostly nice (she spanked me once–didn’t think she was so nice then), but her mother was mean. Weird.

I love people’s stories or testimonies. The resilience with which we humans rise again and again and again, and sometimes of the ones who cannot rise again. I especially like ones like yours. Seeing where you are now, reading of your still-humanness, finding out where you come from — it all gives me the light at the end fo the tunnel. Even the darkest stories ultimately have the happy ending of Gloria writing heavenletters.

Reply from Gloria on March 7, 2010

That is indeed a happy ending, beloved Pam. Thank you.

Reply from One on March 16, 2010

I wonder how interesting our stories will be when we look at them threaded between many lifetimes. There would be greater understanding for why things happen the way they do.

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