Notebooks from the Past

Yesterday I took most of the notebooks I used to Godwrite™ in and put them in the trash pick up. There is no going back now.

It sounds so awful, putting Godwriting™ notebooks in the trash, but it wasn’t so awful. Remember, God told me to go ahead and do it. It felt freeing actually. Not that it was all easy to do. I kept having that feeling: “What if something marvelous is in this notebook and I throw it away?”

Then I would see the thick dust on the notebooks, and it was easier to part with them.

Now it occurs to me that I should have had some kind of ceremony, lit a candle or something, but I didn’t think of it at the time. Maybe I should always be lighting a candle in tribute to God. I will go light one now. I will feel bad if I don’t.

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I made some discoveries. Godwriting itself started earlier than I had remembered. 1997. Published Heavenletters started in 1998. I noticed that it was a couple of years before I started Godwriting in purple ink!

Every word of God’s I glanced over was wonderful. It would seem that what God says to us is beautiful whether we’re Godwriting for the first time or eleven years later. God is consistently remarkable and simple.

It is hard for me to believe that I have been Godwriting every day for eleven years. Really and truly, the actual experience of Godwriting itself is timeless. Godwriting is definitely time-out, no connection to time whatsoever. Even though I can say a Godwriting took twenty or thirty minutes, the experience itself – or rather, the non-experience itself – is out of time. Even though I know exactly the chair I’m sitting in, even though I am aware of everything and definitely not out of my body, I am nevertheless not in space.

Even though it seems ordinary for me now to sit and Godwrite, even though I may not always be feeling the great wonder and awe of Godwriting, even though my eyes can look out at the daffodils blooming and I am well aware of typing and my mind is not always focused the way I think it should be – even so, I am listening to God, and my fingers type. Godwriting is a very earthly and unearthly experience at the same time. Ordinary and extraordinary. Personal and universal.

I still don’t quite believe it is my fingers that type Heavenletters.

I would love to know what everyone else’s experiences of Godwriting are like. Please tell us.

Just yesterday, in my personal Godwriting, I told God about parting with the notebooks. I expressed my surprise at having been Godwriting back in 1997. What God says to one, I do believe He is really saying to all:

Gloria to God:
God, I discovered I have been Godwriting since January 1997.

God:
Gloria, you have been Godwriting all your life. You had no recognition of it, but you were. You don’t recall seeking Me either, and yet you were always seeking Me, looking for Me, wanting Me. You were unaware, beloved, yet you were scurrying for Me. Aren’t you glad you were?

Gloria:

Very glad. Very glad I found You – or You found me.

God:
It is the same thing, beloved. There is no difference.

Posted by Gloria on April 23rd, 2008 under these topics
Decluttering, Godwriting Workshops, Godwriting Journal

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Reply from Charles Fines on April 23, 2008

Gloria, I’m glad that God told you to do this. I would have thought you had lost your mind otherwise. This seems so extraordinary and momentous. Perhaps something like leaving the body we have inhabited behind when we move on to the other side. We tend to make a big deal of that too tho in effect we really are just putting it in the trash when we don’t need it any longer.

Maybe it doesn’t hurt to light a candle then either, but I am reminded that Jesus in that situation once said, “Let the dead bury the dead.” Anyway, I’ll join you, hat in hand, for a respectful moment of silent gratitude.

Reply from Gloria on April 23, 2008

Beloved Charles, you have such a balanced perspective. I take my hat off to you, dear one.

What can be lost when there is God?

I would not have done this without God’s say-so, though I don’t know what I would have done with all of the notebooks. Sometimes God is a surprise a minute. He sure has broken quite a few of my boundaries.

Now, all the old emails on my computer — I also must put them into the trash one of these days, though there are those emails that will be very hard for me to part with. Oh, this attachment.

Reply from Jack van Raders on April 24, 2008

Dear Gloria, I do not know when I became a reader but I saved every heaven letter that came into my computer,Not so long ago I either read it in Heavenletter or somewhere else “trash what you do not need anymore’ I would never have the time nor the inclination to go through them all so Yes I binned them together with a lot of other stuff that I liked but never looked up again. What ever GOD says in his letter to us I am in full agreement with so what is new? YES when he speaks of love and I tell GOD “so and so is hard to LOVE he tells me in the next letter how to do it. I learned long ago that I can never win an argument with GOD. So what is New. I love you all and that is for sure. Have a beautiful Day and sleep well in GOD”s Arms Jack

Reply from Sally on April 24, 2008

Wow Gloria, if the notebooks are gone it means you are really leaving Fairfield! I’m still in denial about that you know. If you are available for lunch Saturday, Randy and I are thinking of driving over. I admire your strength in being able to part with almost all of your posessions. It must be very freeing. It’s something I think about doing but the tedious work of actually sorting, deciding, and selling it seems overwhelming. So much old sentimental stuff feels like a burden instead of a comfort to me nowadays. I wonder if other people are feeling that too? It’s like all those material objects consume energy. Let me know if you are free for lunch Saturday. Love, Sally

Reply from Gloria on April 24, 2008

Beloved Sally, I did keep a few notebooks for my daughter to scan from. You are right, the sorting is tedious. The freedom and sense of power, however, are fabulous! It is most unlikely I would ever have done it until I had to.

Sally, it must be I am really leaving because now I am getting invitations right and left. Saturday I am busy. This Sunday too.

How is next week for you? Or the weekend of the Art Walk?

You know I do very much want to see you and Randy and never say goodbye. When the spiritual center is built, you will both come, yes?

When Santhan arrives in Fairfield, I look forward to inviting you and everyone over to meet him. Will let you know D-Day once I know.

Reply from Sally on April 24, 2008

How about Saturday May 3rd? We will pick you up between 11-11:30 if that will work for you.

Reply from Jo on April 25, 2008

Gloria,
I think you said it best with the terms “remarkable and simple” and “earthly and unearthly”. Godwriting is exactly these things. Simultaneously ordinary and extraordinary. I read a line that sums it up for me and my apologies to the author, Angeles Arien because I’m paraphrasing. But Godwriting for me is one way to “walk the Spiritual, mystical path with practical feet.”
I love God’s response “Gloria, you have been Godwriting all your life.” This rings so true.
All Love,
Jo

Reply from Gloria on April 25, 2008

With practical feet! I love it!

You know of what you speak, angel.

Jo, how did we live without the conscious awareness of Godwriting?

When are you going to share some more with us?

LOving you,

Gloria

Reply from Jo on April 25, 2008

I think all that stumbling around in the dark makes us truly appreciate and appropriately respect the powerful simplicity of Godwriting’s Light. If anything blog-worthy shows up, I will let you know. Thanks for asking.
XO

Reply from Margaret W on April 27, 2008

Gloria, Your discovery really inspired me:
“Gloria to God: God, I discovered I have been Godwriting since January 1997.” Your devotion to Godwriting has been such a blessing for so many, for more all the time. I am inspired by your discovery to be much more faithful about God-writing myself. I have seen how you are so sweetly being changed by God through the process, and I know I have neglected the opportunity to God-write consistently on my own. The class you gave was wonderful–and I could have been God-writing every day since then (2001?). But I release the past! I am telling you about my desire to God-write regularly now, because sometimes when I want to make a change in my habits, I need to be “accountable” to someone. This doesn’t put any obligation on you, dear friend! But I will tell you from time to time how I am doing with fullfilling this desire of mine.

We are looking forward to seeing you next Thursday, May 1st.

Loving you.

Reply from Gloria on April 28, 2008

Beloved Margaret, I expect a report from you now! And to see some of your Godwriting shared if you will. I know how awesome the Godwriting you do is. You have had some spectacular gems.

You are right about the gradual sweet blessings that come from continued Godwriting. (But please don’t tell anyone how i used to be!)

It is hard for me to imagine that there is anything for God to do for you, Margaret. You have always been an inspiration, and you still are.

It is amazing to me how we can resist the wonderfulness of Godwriting. just writing to God from our hearts of itself does something good.

Reply from Margaret W on April 28, 2008

“just writing to God from our hearts of itself does something good” So so true, dear Gloria. Well, I have written for 2 days now. I will share some things sometimes, of course. Please tell me the official route for posting personal God-writing. I am so grateful to you for your loving reply to my post. Blessings abounding and see you Thursday for lunch!

Reply from Gloria on April 28, 2008

Dearest Margaret,

One way to post personal Godwriting is to send it to me, and we can put it up as Heavenpetals.

Some people post their Godwriting on the forum. I think it probably honors your Godwriting more here on the blog.

In case everyone doesn’t know, on the right margin, you can find a category called Heavenpetals, and that is where you find some of the Godwriting that graduates of a workshop have done.

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