In response to Lynda’s response in yesterday’s blog entry, yes, to be able to acknowledge that something is ego and recognize that it is keeping us from totality with God is a big step — and I am grateful for that step.

All the comments everyone posted were insightful and added to my layers of understanding.

I think it’s safe to say that we all can agree that yesterday’s blog about ego/nafs opened up a hornet’s nest! Did we ever have so many strong heartfelt responses appear on this blog so quickly?!!

Dorothy, who tells us that she has been following this blog for some time,  was moved to comment for the first time by that blog. And I am so glad for the topic of nafs that they brought Dorothy to comment and we could see her.

I do want to quote here from Jochen’s last comment:

What if we accepted and embraced it all, bringing ourselves up lovingly as we do our children (or at least our grandchildren), a suggestion here, a caution there – and lots of Heavenletters.

The key word is lovingly. Ah, with love. If we were all in full-swing of our love, where could ego reside? Hasn’t God in Heavenletters said something like that?

But wait — we just had some kind of synchronicity. Maybe even a miracle. Certainly something that tells me that, wow, God is following this blog!

But, first, let me give you a little background, as I always must:

Heaven Admin and I are having regular business meetings concerning Heaven matters such as the upcoming web site upgrade etc. Heaven Admin suggested that we each take one of the notebooks in my office to jot down our ideas in for our meetings. Of course, I said, “Yes.”

I also mentioned that a lot of the notebooks already had something written in them, mainly something I had started and not continued with for one reason or another.

Anyway, this morning I looked through the notebooks. I found a cute little one for myself that someone had given me. It has a darling bee on the cover and says Bee Happy.

Then I picked up a composition notebook for Heaven Admin, and, true enough, it already had something written in it. And what did it have written in it?

It had one Heavenletter written in it. There is no date, no number, just the Heavenletter itself beginning with God said.  It’s possible that I never typed this Heavenletter up. I don’t know.

Here are the first two lines:

The thing with ego is that is a habit to be weaned from.  Like any other habit, it is dispensable.

I will continue with it a little bit and then ask Jochen to see if he can find this Heavenletter among the four thousand or so Heavenletters that have been published. If it hasn’t been, I will, of course, type it all up, and send it to Theophil to put in the Heaven queue.

We can even go so far as to call ego an addiction. It is like a reaction to a drug. You become the victim of it, as if you had no choice but to take the drug and no choice about what happens after.

Ego is like a bug. It climbs up your leg. It brings up an army of itself and overtakes you.

The color of ego is red. When you blush, when your skin flushes, ego is at work. Whether you blush in pride or blush in humiliation, the agent of color is red.

To be continued tomorrow.

Oops, I promised you, Charles, that I would add a few more nafs to our list, and it is a naf if I don’t do what I said. I can see that. If I didn’t do what I said, I wouldn’t because “something else came up.” I would have changed my mind as if what I think is all that matters. I’m not going to do that anymore. So, dear Charles, here are four more wild horses or dogs to walk, as the case may be:

To mix oneself into affairs that do not concern one.

To gossip.

To be stubborn.

 To cheat.