In Praise of Godwriting
When we Godwrite™, we turn a tiny switch on – or it turns itself on — from regular thinking to Godthinking. The switch turns an imperceptible amount, not even an amount, just our hand, as it were, placed on the switch, takes us to the place of Godwriting where the limits of happiness and unhappiness do not exist. There has to be another word than happiness to describe the undelineated space of Godwriting. Godwriting is its own land, and yet it is right where we are. It is not foreign at all.
Godwriting is not like entering Narnia. It’s not the world changing color. Godwriting may well reflect what is meant by “being in the world but not of the world.” It’s like we come closer to something at the same time as we are further away, and we don’t really get what it is we are nearer to and farther from.
I don’t want to make too much of the process of Godwriting because it is not an intellectual enterprise. It’s not really an enterprise. It is not even an experience exactly. It certainly is not an experience in capital letters. It may be a non-experience.
Now as I write this, I am trying to remember what the process of Godwriting is like. I’m trying to explain it. If I say it’s not possible to explain, I am making it bigger than it is. And yet, like God, it cannot be explained. I want to say that it can only be experienced, yet it is not experienced. Perhaps we just touch the experience without putting our finger on it. I don’t want to make Godwriting too big nor do I want to make it seem like it’s not much. It is much, and yet it is — nothing at all.
If it is a place, I love to be there. It is my favorite place in all the world. And yet I only sit in my chair, and I am aware I am Godwriting and I am aware of the room I sit in and the world I live in, and yet I am Godwriting. I am disheveled, and Godwriting doesn’t care.
I cannot say that Godwriting is a dramatic surge of inspiration though sometimes it is. Sometimes it is more like uninspired inspiration. Sometimes it is not knowing that we are in the midst of marvelousness. Sometimes it seems like nothing at all. Sometimes it is like finding a diamond on the street, and we know it’s a diamond, and sometimes it’s like finding a penny, and we’re not even sure we want to bother to pick up the penny, and yet, when we do, the penny may turn into silver, or it may not.
What I can say with certainty is that Godwriting, as imperceptible as it is, is irresistible. Each Godwriting is entirely new. It is its own. The Godwriting today has never happened before. Yesterday’s Godwriting was yesterday’s, and it seems to blend in somewhere, not vanish exactly, but no longer be where it was. The words are written down, and we still call them Godwriting. The words may click with us again and again, and reading the words is as much discovery as Godwriting itself is, and yet it is not enough, and we want fresh Godwriting to release itself from us or to come through us or whatever Godwriting does to make itself known.
Godwriting is so simple. It is almost too simple. It is like playing a note of music on the piano. All the keys are there, yet we don’t know what note we are going to play until the moment it is played. Our fingers touch the key, yet we are not the ones who choose the note though we do seem to play it. We have something to do with it.
Or we play on a soundless piano, yet we can hear the note played somewhere inside of us. The music wants to come out, and we let it.
Before the moment of Godwriting, I feel a vague restlessness.
It is a little bit like being hungry and foraging in the refrigerator. What will I eat now this minute? What does this refrigerator hold for me? What’s in here that wants me to take it out?
Or Godwriting is like opening a warm oven and finding out what has been baking there.
Or it is like spreading sweet butter with a favorite knife on bread warm from the oven, and the butter melts on the bread, the way Godwriting melts on the page.
Godwriting is a blog by Gloria Wendroff and is about Gloria's daily life as the Godwriter of the Heavenletters project that is having a profound effect on the lives of people around the world.
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