What I am confessing is about how my mind works! And a little more too.

When I think of the time I spent in Europe a couple of years ago in Greece, Germany, and Romania, it almost feels like something I made up. It was all true, and yet it was so marvelous, how could it have been true!

It was all beautiful. Have I ever been so well treated as I was for those glorious weeks? Once in a while, maybe, here and there, but not so all at once!

You’ve got to understand it was not that I was well-treated in Europe — it was that I was supremely well-treated. I am still pinching myself.

It couldn’t get better, but then, when I met Heaven Admin in Romania, it did get even better. I was carried off to a castle (literally) and to a fairytale land and to the court of King Arthur where I was met with undreamed of courtliness. See the blog entry How to Become a Princess, and you will know what I mean. Totally unimaginable chivalry. The best fiction writer in the world couldn’t have thought of all the wondrousness of those few days. It was almost too wonderful to bear.

Who knew such gentlemanliness could exist today? And that I, for Heaven’s sakes, would experience it. There is a God!

This had to do with the people who extended such incredible hospitality. It reflects on them. It was my good fortune, and yet the graciousness was theirs and I just happened to be there receiving it all with a big smile on my face.

So now another European trip is coming up, and Heaven Admin will meet me in London and see me off in London. This is out of King Arthur’s Court, isn’t it? Life can’t get better. I know it can’t.

But here’s where my traitorous errant mind comes in. “Gloria, ” my mind says, “you’re right. Life can’t get any better. But you’re certainly not thinking that it can stay as good, are you?  Have you considered that…”

Does your mind do that sort of thing too? But there is more.

I don’t want to be the one always receiving. I want to be a giver too. Only how?

There is a school of thought in the Talmud, or somewhere, that says that by our giving others opportunities to do do good deeds for us, we are doing good deeds for them.

According to this, I am utterly generous, and I do good deeds right and left. HAHAHA!

The only thing is — I know better. So, how on Earth do I begin to reciprocate?