God’s Promise

In Heavenletter #3409, The World Is a Reflector, http://www.heavenletters.org/the-world-is-a-reflector.html God tells us we are going to have a great insight that will open us up to a new way of looking at the world. It was true. At least I had an insight on that day. Early in the morning actually.

I am a little dismayed that my insight was a psychological insight. From God’s words, I thought I was going to have a great spiritual awakening! Oh, that God, He is one surprise after another!

Rather then my being caught in a net of of His that I would call Delightful Awakening, I find I am caught in a net I see as Sobering Realization. I am guessing that I have to find my own way out of this net unless the insight alone will carry me higher. Maybe it will, but it hasn’t yet. I am grateful that I am seeing what I could call the enemy, the fatal flaw of my perception, how caught in the world I have been, and so on.

The insight might have begun weeks ago with a friend of mine who has been saying: “My boyfriend is not here for me.” This was a sad refrain. There is a book and a movie, I believe, called He’s Not Really into You. The theme is the same. Someone you thought was there for you really wasn’t and isn’t. Someone you thought was one way, now you see is another. And now what do you do?

When our heart is broken, it is our pasted-on dream that is really broken. I seem to give responsibility for my happiness to someone else. My life rises and falls according to my perception of what someone else portrays. When my heart is broken, it is really my pasted-on dream that is broken.

I make idols of people, even people in my life who are insignificant, a customer service representative, or a workman, or a neighbor, anyone who turns out not to be as wonderful as I anticipated, and, in my eyes, ought to be, and my reaction is far more dire than the situation warrants. Even in the small things, I am dismayed, and dismayed out of proportion. Dismayed and disheartened. Okay, disillusion is one thing, but suffering from disillusion, suffering from it is ridiculous. When will I stop it?

Am I living on the waves of others? Am I so much the yo-yo of the world? God is here. I am so fortunate. Not a day goes by that I am not utterly grateful to God, and yet I dwindle in my heart because of what someone says or doesn’t say etc. It can be anyone.

So many times my daughter has said that I keep putting my finger on the hot stove. I keep learning the same lessons again and again and never really learn them. When am I going to learn?

Now I unravel particles of my insight on the day God said we would have a great insight and then the flexibility to change our lives and our world.

I wonder if I have been waiting for the world to save me from the world! I seem to have many little disillusions in front of me that distract me from Oneness.

Apparently, varying layers of disillusion have been the hot stove I keep putting my finger on.

The past has to be a rung in the ladder that I once stood on and now I climb to another rung with a far wider and higher view, a rung that extends far beyond the past and my past reliance on people and events. The name of this new rung must be God or Self.

I climb, and yet I rely on the world.

I am reminded of a poem by Wordsworth, The World is Too Much with Us. Do you remember this poem?

The world is too much with us; late and soon,
Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers:
Little we see in Nature that is ours;
We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon!
This Sea that bares her bosom to the moon;
The winds that will be howling at all hours,
And are up-gathered now like sleeping flowers;
For this, for everything, we are out of tune,
It moves us not.–Great God! I’d rather be
A Pagan suckled in a creed outworn;
So might I, standing on this pleasant lea,
Have glimpses that would make me less forlorn;
Have sight of Proteus rising from the sea;
Or hear old Triton blow his wreathed horn.

Posted by Gloria on May 8th, 2010 under these topics
poetry, Personal Development, Heaven Letters, Godwriting Journal

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Reply from Normand Bourque on May 8, 2010

Dear Gloria, I just love this blog of yours. First, because I just felt exactly the same way you did that very day God promised us a great insight.
For me the great insight was that I didn’t apparently had any. Then I said to myself: «Self, the real promise is the one that you make to your Self». Make yourself the surprise of your own Self. I know it is a bit of circular logic but that is the way it seems to work.

And, secondly, beloved Gloria, I guessed a while ago that you are Aries in the Western Astrology. Which means that you will never learn because you already know who you are. Yet, you have to discover again and again what you know you really are. Simplicity made simple: that’s what creates problems!

Reply from Jochen on May 8, 2010

« An insight today will transfer you there.»

We may want to reply, “Actually it doesn’t, dear God”, but don’t we hesitate? What if this is a statement of fact?

Thank you for making me read this letter again, Gloria. And thank you for this great entry that so clearly states many of our doubts and questions. What we are doing all the time, finding ourselves wanting and feeling disappointed about it — I believe God would not call that an insight. It may be a helpful step occasionally but on the whole it does not seem to be very uplifting and inspiring.

The worst kind of insight I know, feeling worse than no insight at all, are those that turn out to be footless. They may feel very profound and like a true spiritual revelation — until I find they are not getting me anywhere, certainly not out of my old ruts of thinking, feeling and reacting. One might even feel worse off having them! Just one more blown illusion and then another, no end in sight.

«You are going to make a discovery today, a lovely discovery.»

What if it did happen and we didn’t notice because we were waiting for something impressive? God said:

«There is a new switch in you. Off has become On. Such a tiny switch. Such a tiny change, and it changes everything.»

Tiny! And now we are On instead of Off. We don’t feel it, we don’t know what it entails, but it has been said. Can we trust On? Can we simply choose to let On seep into us, even not knowing what it means?

The mind is unable to understand Oneness. The mind is unable to understand how the world is as we perceive it, the mind thinks there must be some magick involved, some sort of cause and effect. The mind, in short, does not really believe God, try as it might, pretend as it might. And the mind cannot put that tiny switch to On. God can. Reading Heavenletters can. Well, that’s what I think.

Reply from Jack van Raders on May 8, 2010

Dear Gloria and others Just keep loving, If people do not do what you expected just keep loving all will be will no all “I S” well donot be disappointed just shrug it off and look at the sunrise or sunset or the Rain frrding your flowers. each of us has to work our own path. so love All and Serve all. Jack

Reply from Gloria on May 8, 2010

Such beautiful valuable comments here.

Of course, I would have loved a fabulous Self-Realization, something so amazingly wonderful that I would be walking on air. Wouldn’t that be nice, whatever it might have been. I would have loved to win the lottery (I never play it)etc. but I can’t say I was disappointed. I know what disappointment is, and this wasn’t it.

The fact is I can use some grounding, and grounding is what I got. And I am making considerable progress in this area of becoming more free and less attached. I am finding that something that makes me unhappy, well, I get over it more quickly and, on several occasions, situations have resolved themselves and even have happy endings.

Maybe in a blog entry, I’ll go more into this.

Reply from Lynda on May 9, 2010

Gloria, I went back and read Heavenletter #3409.
Then I thought, what was I doing on that day? Did I have a revelation of any kind?

Well, on March 26th I had to take the day off and have work done on my car. The work was far more that my mechanic or I expected. Brakes (again) calipers, wheel bearings… to the tune of almost $2,000. The garage called a car rental and they brought a rental for me, as it was going to take into the next day to fix.
Apparently, this was caused by all of the daily driving I am doing, as they are now using what is called a “brine” on the roads for the ice. And it is causing unbelievable damage to the under sides of our vehicles.

I remember asking God what the point is to having received a salary increase if it is going to go toward repair of my car, because of all the driving I am doing.
And I remember God’s answer.

Here is what I heard - “You heard the noises, you listened. You listened to your intuition, that something was amiss. You made an appointment for repair before the car broke down.
If this was your body, would you not see someone to help you?

You are the owner and driver of this vehicle. This is the vehicle you use to move you through your world at this time. Love it, and bless that you have the opportunity to be able to repair it.”

Hmmm.. And then, Gloria, I went back and read your blog on that day. Your blog, and the stories you are writing, were quite a revelation for me. You were able to take me back to my past through your story, and that is what lead to my comment, “God was part of their decision, even though they didn’t recognize it at the time.”

We will always have opportunities to be disappointed with others and their actions, or lack of.

But in my experience, if I have allowed myself to be disappointed, it was usually because I had expectations that didn’t quite fit the person or situation.

Even with my car. I am driving over a 1,000 kms a week. Why would I think I would not need the odd repair once in a while?

So, that day, I had a few revelations, even though they weren’t earth shattering, mind blowing ah ha’s.

Gloria, being an Aries, you will see and feel many things with an innocence and enthusiasm of a child. Your sign, is considered the first sign on the twelve wheel chart. You are a fire sign. I am also a fire sign (Leo) and those of us who are fire, get all “fired up” about things. We are passionate. We will keep putting our fingers on the burner, because that is what we do. Perhaps we just need to a tad quicker at lifting them off, and applying the ice pack.

And, apparently some of us need to tell a story, to share our points with others! No one liners for us!

Reply from Gloria on May 9, 2010

I am so grateful now that you have a safe car in good repair, and I love what you wrote.

I think, that when I have been deeply disappointed, I had not only expected what I wanted, I was also insisting on it, demanding it, so attached I was.

It looks like I am indeed an Aries! Good point to take our fingers off the burner sooner.

Reply from Kathy on May 12, 2010

Gloria: I have lived my whole life the way you wrote about this topic. That is until recently. I got a message to “go forth” and so I did.

I left my home and my belongings and my lack of faith behind me. I had a couple of friends help me build a camper on the back of my truck and I loaded my dog up and went on down the road. Listening to my inner voice, I have traveled many thousands of miles and have now found myself in charge of a wonderful website, and the most fantastic thing about it is that the person who “gets” this information had “put out there” a message to God asking that someone who needed a place to stay and who knew how to do websites would come into their lives.

And so here I am and I made this trip on faith and I will continue this trip once the site is 100% up and running and I know that the next place I stop at will have another person who needs my help in one way or another. When I arrived here, Pam asked me, “Are you an Angel?” and my reply is, “Aren’t we all?”.

I don’t let anything bother me any more. Life is a wonder and it is thrilling and I cannot wait until tomorrow to see what I get to learn or who I get to meet or where I get to go. I love life and living.

Reply from One on May 20, 2010

Look what beauty arose from that grounding insight! The writing in this post and then the comments. I love when I read something that’s so captivating.

Aye, it is the battering of challenges and experiences in the world that breaks the shell around the heart, leaving one vulnerable and so powerful in the same breath.

Bit dramatic that Wordsworth chap eh? Sounds like Jack Daniels poetry to me.

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