Expressing oneself and being heard

When I am squeezed into a situation and not given a choice, my dander goes up. And much of my distress falls on Microsoft. Yet I am well aware that, without Microsoft, how would I do all the things I must do for Heavenletters™.

Right now, the day I post this, Microsoft interrupts me every ten minutes asking me do I want to download updates. I do not. And I don’t want to be keep being interrupted. Microsoft gives me two options: Update or Postpone. I want an option called Go Away, Don’t Bother Me.

Besides, their updates usually cause me difficulties AFTER I download them as well. Microsoft, please stop BOTHERING me all the time.

Why does Microsoft have to have updates anyway? Why can’t they do it right the first time?

The time before this,  I was trying to save an innocent word document, saving as I always save. This is the message that pops up. No matter what I do, this message pops up:

The folder C:\Users\Gloria\Documents Workshop isn’t accessible. The folder may be located in an unavailable location protected with a password or the file name contains a / or \.

Who asked them? Just save it like you always do.

Before I can get away from this uncalled-for message,  they make me press OK. It’s NOT OK with me, and I resent having to click saying it is okay with me. I do not like being given no choice whatsoever.

At these frustrations, a kind of a simmering smoldering begrudging anger overcomes me, kind of a snarling anger, a put-upon anger, a customer service kind of anger. I guess it comes down to my not being able of expressing myself and being heard. Oh, to be able to express oneself and be heard.

(Later)

Regarding the document Microsoft would not let me save, Heaven Admin patiently came over. As soon as he sat down and I explained the situation, I cooled down and saw for myself that the Microsoft message did make sense. The title I had named this document did have a slash (/) in it. Their message wasn’t obtuse. They had said it clearly. I was obtuse. I was the one who couldn’t hear it or see it. When Heaven Admin sat down next to me, I caught his coherence and was able to read what was right in front of me.

From now on, I must start out with the idea of giving Microsoft the benefit of the doubt. I must start out with the idea of giving Microsoft the benefit of the doubt. I must start out with the idea of giving Microsoft the benefit of the doubt.

Posted by Gloria on January 22nd, 2012 under these topics
Personal Development, computers, Godwriting Journal

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Reply from Jacqueline on January 23, 2012

Yes, I do the same thing. I always expect that I am doing the absolute correct thing and the computer message is in error.

Then Jeffrey says blah, blah, blah, did you check?

And of course I did not check because I think I am infallible when I work on the computer.

Not so, I’m afraid. When I finally check to see I do get it - yes there was human error and it was named Jacqueline.

Reply from mw on January 23, 2012

It seems to me that the same thing sometimes goes on with computers and we who spend a lot of time with them as often goes on between partners and among family members: Our rough edges are exposed and we are given a chance to see something about ourselves that without these “reflectors” we would be able to avoid seeing. I know that when I am by myself (and not on the computer) I feel “perfect”. It is in my relationships with people that my habitual contracted self-focus and related impatience, irritability, and judgment, etc. are revealed to me. With grace, sometimes, I am able to recognize the occasion as the opportunity to open my heart to the other as another amazing beloved expression of The Oneness that in Truth IS.

Reply from Jack van Raders on January 23, 2012

Hey Gloria do not get your “Gander” up just be your lovely “Duck” Ask Why? and the answer will arrive in the form of Santhan. Or you might even figger it out yourself, that nasty Gander blocks your brain. Love Jack

Reply from Jacqueline on January 24, 2012

Santhan,

That is a beautiful comment on the shared experience!

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