Different Operating Systems

On this blog, the comments are the most wonderful of all. This has been shown time and time again. It was revealed in a recent entry, The Preciousness of Things, an entry about needless damage to growing things.

I would like to share what Marko said to Paula and then what Paula said to Marko, and then I have more to say.

Here’s Marko’s comment:

Paula, what a great story of the roses!

Now the man who cut them and is suffering, well guess who needs that love energy you gave the roses!

He does, he can’t say it or is not aware enough to ask, but you might see the Universe calling to you to help this man with the love energy that the roses got, but that he didn’t.

You would perhaps not otherwise give this man love energy had this experience not occured as it did.

Then Paula replied to Marko:

Dear Marko, what a great insight you gave me with your comment. I realized that I still judge people as deserving and not deserving love. I forgot that true Love is unconditional and for everyone. I forgot that everyone is doing their best, and if they knew better they would do better.
Thank you!

I know that Paula and Marko are right. They are saying exactly what God in Heavenletters™ says. Yet, living up to it, ah, that is another thing.

Now I’m going to talk a minute about an experience I recently had with my computer and then come back to this beautiful theme of everyone’s deserving our love.

Okay, I was typing an email, and I wanted to italicize a title. So, I highlighted the title and pressed I for italics. Well, apparently, I had not highlighted the last letter of the last word of the title. I went back and highlighted the last word and pressed I for italics again. Well, the computer took away all the italics from the last word instead of making it all italics as I had wanted it to.

I said something like this under my breath: “Why, you blankety blank computer, can’t you tell I meant the whole word to be italicized?”

Of course, my computer, Schatzi, couldn’t tell that. She is innocent. She can only see as far as she can see. She can compute only to her ability to compute.

I apologized right away.

And I was reminded of Marko’s comment. The man who destroyed my beautiful bleeding hearts and the man who cut back Paula’s lilac and rose bushes, like my computer, were doing only so far as they could see. And yet I did hold their computing ability, or inability, against them.

These men had a different agenda from Paula’s and mine. They were looking at getting a certain job done. While Paula and I have our hearts centered on caring for the beauty and vitality of plants, her guy was thinking of neatness and trimming, and my guy was thinking of getting the weeding done. We simply are operating from different computers.

When Marko and Paula said what they said, a light went on for me.

And God has said that we are not wonderful to forgive, for we are not wonderful to take offense in the first place.

I understand what God, Marko, and Paula were so rightly saying, and I wholeheartedly agree, and, yet, when I think of those gardeners, I still carry resentment. I try to give them love, but trying to love isn’t the same as loving. There is no question but that I love bleedings hearts and roses and lilacs more than I love the gardeners. I don’t know if I love them at all.

I wonder if I will ever get to the place where I really can let go of my hard feelings.

And what about the next thing that comes up? Will I even remember what is the right course of action?

I do wish I could learn this, really learn this, once and for all.

Posted by Gloria on September 23rd, 2008 under these topics
computers, Forgiveness, Heaven Letters, Godwriting Journal

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Reply from paula on September 23, 2008

Regarding hard feelings, I’m living an experience I can’t quite understand. I play tennis with a number of different people, normally twice a week. Now, in one group there is a lady who says all kinds of mean things to her fellow players and has discussions on whether the ball was in or out. And that’s fine with me. The other group I play with is made of three women, who never say anything not nice to each other and never discuss a ball, but when I play with them I often get this frustrated and angry feeling. So much so that last time I told them that I wouldn’t play with them for a while. Now, I cannot understand why I got these bad feelings only with these ladies. It was not about losing, I don’t mind that. I just can’t quite put my finger on it. And also felt guilty about having these feelings. But are they mine? Or was I collecting their feelings and thoughts? Well, I’ll try to look at the beam in my own eye and maybe go back to play with them again.

Reply from Jochen on September 23, 2008

Alas, Señora, you are not going to learn this once and for all but piecemeal. The secret, as far as I understand it now, is in simply tending or “leaning” in that direction and NOT beating up on yourself when you blew it again. Little by little, the abrasiveness of our reactions gets less. Hard feelings are wonderful. They can be quite satisfying in themselves and, once they don’t feel so good any more, teach us what we truly want. Let us be grateful that at least we haven’t talked ourselves into believing we’re loving when we’re not. People who do that have a hard time knowing what’s what.

Paula, the bickering person in the one group could be open and honest and even perhaps a little funny, thus not a problem, whereas in the other group there could be some falseness involved. Whatever we take a little less seriously gets that much more manageable. A little less, and again next month a little less and….. That has been my recent experience in the field of getting less resentful and more loving: piecemeal.

Reply from Joyce on September 23, 2008

Gloria, the real question is, who are you? Are you the ego, which hates the gardeners, or the Consciousness which sees the ego, but knows only love?

Reply from Marko on September 23, 2008

Hard feelings. The dilemma that can rule the World through unconscious reaction rather than conscious response.

We learn it from our parents, cultural, media, movies, radio, and novels etc. To break out of this will be one of the greatest factors leading toward inner peace which will lead to World Peace which will lead to higher Imaginings undreamed of at this moment.

Sadly, we have so few role models that “we” have to become the change we’d like to see in others.

We are not so nearly self aware as we think we are. Being ruled by our unconscious reactions proves this and is the cause of the smallest little bickerings to the most large scaled of wars.

Yet we have compassion on ourselves as we would a baby learning to walk, a kitten or puppy learning their way in their new bodies. If we knew better we would do better.

What if we know better and still don’t do better? That’s the dilemma, of being more influenced by our unconscious reactions and less by our conscious responding.

The signals that we’d prefer not to “be” a certain way even as we continue “be”ing in that way, is the signal and transition to an raising awareness.

Admitting that, is part of the process, that helps us realize that and move ahead. To not admit it, is either denial, ignorance or arrogance. Admittance is being aware and humble. That is, teachable to newer ideas.

It’s called evolving.

My current recourse in transitioning out of hard feelings is this. I practice becoming a Master Blesser. I bless those situations I don’t care for.

It’s an art and a practice. When frustrated, resentful etc. if we can, ask ourselves, “What is the gift and blessing in this experience, if I open myself to it?”

When I get uPset as I did when my last storm window (out of four) which I had sanded, primed and painted would not hook right and required several trips to the hardware store to realign. Each time it presented a problem (it was the last window!) I really got steamed. My best recourse was to leave the window situation, and go in the house for awhile and do something else.

It really helped. Later, after surfing on the computer a bit I could go back and do it in a better frame of mind. I realized if the window could talk it would say this.

“I’m broken and need to be fixed, I need your help to hang and work properly. Not hanging properly is how I can talk to you and tell you that I’m hurting. When I’m fixed I will be able to do my job, but first I need your help.”

Of course this is a blessing, it certainly beats hanging it only to have it fall off and break at a later time creating even more work.

Sometimes we just need to go do something else, see the humor in it and bless it. Heck, I bless things even after I’ve said a few colourful worlds about it. Blessing even after I’ve blown off some steam still brings that good energy that I desire to bring to the situation. Even if it’s after the fact.

So yes, even after we have cursed or whatever we’ve done at a particular situation, let us move forward in blessing as quick as we can. That’s the best we can do at the moment. In doing so, we allow and open the pathways to do even better in keeping our peace of mind.

It’s the challenge of transitioning out of the old way of being to a new way of being that brings even more inner peace and joy.

It’s a challenge and opportUnity.

We may have our uPs and downs around it, but the compassion we give ourselves and others, eases the frustration amidst the challenge. Blessing as best we can furthers the good energy.

Beloved Gloria, I would have you consider that when you say “I love bleedings hearts and roses and lilacs more than I love the gardeners.” Is that what you really desire is to say “I love the gardeners just as much”.

It’s hard of course, wait, I don’t care for that word hard here, it’s a challenge and an opportUNITY to see more of the divine in the gardeners,– even when it’s not apparent, and in doing so ironically, will (hopefully) make their divinity more apparent.

I agree Gloria it’s a big lesson for all of us to learn. For me, sharing how to best flow through these situations as we process and progress our unconscious (less beneficial) feelings to more conscious beneficial feelings is that, eventually, our unconscious feelings will transform to beneficial ones and become conscious and natural.

Reply from Gloria on September 23, 2008

Paula, I relate so much to what you are saying. We sure have a lot in common.

I have had the experience of being with someone or a group who are so nice. They’re so nice, and then I feel guilty because I find a strain with them and don’t care to spend time with them. But they’re so nice. As Jochen says, there may well be something going on under the surface.

Ambiguity is very hard for me. I’d rather know exactly what someone means than to be wondering.

I have a very dear wise friend who told me: “Go by your feelings. It’s enough that you’re not comfortable. You don’t have to know more about it than that.”

There’s another scenario. Sometimes we just outgrow where we used to be. We’re somewhere else now.

It’s a tiny example, but I used to love to go to yard sales and resale shops. Now I find I don’t want to go to them at all.

Anyway, Paula, you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, and you don’t have to give it a second thought. We don’t have to be anywhere we don’t want to.

Reply from Marko on September 23, 2008

Good advice to Paula, Gloria, I agree. Especially this: “Go by your feelings. It’s enough that you’re not comfortable. You don’t have to know more about it than that.

Reply from Pam (fortheloveofGodde) on September 24, 2008

Timely advise for which I thank you all–Gloria, Paula, Jochen and Marko. I’m applying this NOW! Thank you!!

Reply from One on September 27, 2008

I’m interested in the “so nice” part of this conversation because I was thinking about something similar recently.

My understanding. It has to do with being genuine. Being genuine has to do with one’s Dharma, or in other words, being true to oneself. If you feel angry, feel angry. If there is resentment, feel resentment.

How can we fully experience if we pretend it is not so and try to be what we are not.

This may be why one may find a true villain more interesting than a person trying to fit into some kind of conventional mold.

Being true to one’s nature is the same as letting go. It is not a careless attitude. It is a practice that takes the greatest care.

I can only discover who I am by being who I am right now.

bah!

One Love

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