A Personal Question to God
This is a Heavenreader’s heartfelt personal question to God and God’s answer given through Heavenletters. With appreciation, the question and answer are posted here with the permission of the one who asked the question. The questioner’s real name has been withheld.
Jeannette to God:
Dear God:
I am upset with your Heavenletter today. (#2596 Life is for the Choosing).
You tell us to choose. I have chosen. You know I pray and ask and talk to you and your angels, and I am grateful for your helping me through it all this far.
But, you know I choose to get out and start over, but you know I need YOUR help. Without money, I cannot move ahead. You know my situation intimately. I talk to you and your archangels and angels everyday. I see the angels support and am grateful. I have never needed your help as i do now. You know I am in a difficult, abusive situation and have nowhere to go without money.
Money is the answer. I need financial healing and security for my future to be assured and be able to get out and move on from here. You know I didn’t know what my husband was up to being out of work for three years now. You know the myriad of ways he has hurt me and how deeply wounded I am and working on healing from. You know my fear day and night. You know he has used all of our money and we are now on welfare for food.
You know I pray for financial healing and financial security to be able to get out and move on from here and to be able to support my sons now and in the future and to be able to take my dogs and cat who help heal me with their unconditional love daily. I need to be able to care for myself and my pets and find a home and job and leave this situation behind me to heal.
Please God tell me WHEN I can expect the financial healing. I can’t take the phone calls and emails anymore asking for money we don’t have now. I am grateful my husband is finally working again but you know with 2 boys now in college what the bills are and what I need to be able to get out and start over again. I choose to.
I can’t without the money. That’s always “it” on earth. Everything is affected by money here. You know there’s no family for me to depend on. It’s me. and YOU. I need your help. Please help me. Please send me the money I need for security now and in the future.
Please help me heal, God, from all of these years of trauma. Please protect me and my pets and my sons, keep us safe and protected. I love you. Amen. Thank you for healing and helping me. You know how I believe in you and how many people try to prove me wrong in that too.
Jeannette
God to Jeannette:
Beloved Jeannette,
It is not so simple as you think nor is it so complicated.
Dear one, it is okay to be angry with Me. I read your heart. There is a lot of anger to get out. Life was not always fair. You have a lot to let go of, Jeannette.
Understandably, you are frustrated about money. I understand your concerns, and they are concerns I would wish you didn’t have. Certainly, it would be easier if you had money to spare. Yet, beloved, it is not true that money is the answer. It would help you feel better, but it is not the answer. Right now your demand for money keeps you from looking deeper. It is a roadblock for you on more than one level. You have convinced yourself that money is the missing key, that money is what holds you back. No matter how real money is in the relative world, it is not the crux, beloved.
More important than dollars, We want to loosen the hold that fear has on you. Fear has grabbed you by the throat. Sure, who wouldn’t be scared, and yet it is fear that holds you back. Fear and the conviction that you are in need. How tightening that is. How tense your sense of need makes you feel. You have lived with fear for a long time. The fear in you demands guarantees. Life does not come with guarantees.
You and your life are about to change. Your thinking will change. Jeannette of My Heart, you have everywhere to go, with or without money. You have been setting limits. You have been making conditions. You say money must come first, and then you can leave. You say not only that you must have money before you leave, you say there must be so much money before you leave. You have choices to make. Do you want to support your children in college more than you want to leave? You want to leave, and yet you don’t want to leave what you may have to leave in order to leave. Understandably.
I am talking to you now on the surface level of life. I know what you have been through, and how hard it has been. And I know you do not want to hear what I am saying, and it feels that I am being rough with you. You are in a rough situation. I don’t say otherwise. And yet I am not going to sit and hold your hand and commiserate. This is not what you need. My dear Jeannette, if you must change your situation, then you must change it.
Beloved Jeannette, you have the idea that I must slip you money. Beloved, money is not owed to you, no matter how much you deserve. I am God in Heaven, and I am also God within you. I am your Father, beloved, and I love you with all My heart, and yet it is not for you to expect that you are owed and that money from Heaven will fall on you.
The theme for you today, beloved, is to let go of all that is preconceived.
Beloved, you have not yet chosen. You want to leave, yet you have not left. You have decided to leave, but you have not yet left. You have not yet chosen. The choice is yours. It is dependent upon you, not outside you. If you need to be rescued, you must rescue yourself.
When you take an action, often more support rallies. So far you are thinking about an action. You have not taken it.
I am not telling you that you must leave or that you must stay. That is for you to say. There are fear and repercussions either way. Which do you choose? Not which would you choose, but which do you choose?
There is no disgrace in food stamps or welfare. There is no disgrace in working. There is no disgrace in struggling. There is no disgrace in not having the abundance you desire. There is no disgrace in struggling. There is no disgrace in doing what you have to do.
The choices before you are not easy. Nevertheless, you are in Heaven with Me. You don’t believe this, I know. It is very hard to believe this while you live in the third dimension, for the illusion you live in is rocky.
Even so, Jeannette, I will be with you. Angels will be with you. We are with you. You are safe in My arms.
That does not mean that everything will be the way you want. It means I am with you, inexorably with you.
And now I repeat:
If you feel imprisoned in a situation, what are the bars, beloveds, but your own fear?
When you have had enough of the known in the world, it may be time to step into the unknown.
Yes, of course, there is nothing you have to do. It is all choice. What to keep and what to let go of are your choices.
Remind yourself that I love you deeply. Remind yourself that you merit love. Know you always have Mine. Even in these words that rattle your heart, My love is contained. Lean into My love, beloved daughter of Mine.
I AM God, and you ARE Mine.
Godwriting is a blog by Gloria Wendroff and is about Gloria's daily life as the Godwriter of the Heavenletters project that is having a profound effect on the lives of people around the world.

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